Tragic's Wake

I’m worrying about a lot of things, mostly small inconsequential matters that are easily handled but I’m naturally a worrying sort. There is no “one big thing” on my mind right now though. As always, there’s a plethora of things in general but nothing huge or threatening.  I’m worrying a bit about something in Kylearyn’s life right now, it’s nothing earth shattering but has the potential to be truly great. Maybe anticipating is a better word for it but really, isn’t anticipation just the optimist’s word for worry? Or angst in a good way? 

I’m worrying about my summer too, this is the first summer in *I can’t remember how many years* that I wasn’t *this close* to death and it’s scary all on its own. I have so many plans but unlike a normal person, I’m not thinking big like “Ooooh I have this big trip planned and I don’t know about reservations, cash, etc.” I’m thinking more along the lines of  if I’m going to get tired or overdo it or shit like that. Can I learn how to function normally again? I know it takes a long time to bounce back from what I’ve been through but I also know that I’m recovering in leaps and bounds..

Worry is a funny idea, really. It’s just … why do we get so freaky about shit, anything at all? Half the time we waste endless hours worrying about and contemplating the obvious, shit that usually settles itself with nary an effort by us, what’s the point? And the things we should worry about are the things we take for granted, and those are the things that usually pop up when least expected so we didn’t have time to worry in the first place..

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