Tragic's Wake

Day 24: Things I Want to Say to 5 Different People:

• You hurt me. You tried to destroy me. Your exact words were: “If you leave me you’ll have nothing and be nothing and I’ll make sure of it.” Guess what? It backfired on you. In fact I have more than you could ever dream of and I am more than you could ever hope to be. I’ve even saved your ass since and I’m not bitter about you being the person that you are. I was for a very long time but now? Now I just feel pity for you and the hole you’ve dug yourself into.  They all know the truth now and you know they do. Everyone knows that you lied and you have to live with it. It’s not my fault that your Karma is showing and I can’t say that I feel bad about that at all. namaste.
• You always listened to me, you were there at times when nobody else was. I trusted you with every fibre of my being and you never once betrayed me or even considered it. I am at least half the person I am today because of you. You were the bright shining soul, the light at the end of my tunnel. I love you so much and I miss you every single day. Words cannot express how it tears me apart not to be able to share everything I have with you but I know you’re watching and I know you’re proud of me.  ”Tha gaol agam ort.”
• Take this message and the one above as well. You were the most important being in my life, you gave me life, you left because it was your time but please know that I think of you before I make any decisions and I consider how you’d do things. I don’t always make the choice you’d approve of but it always works out just the same. I know that you’d still support me even when you don’t agree, you always did and that’s why you were the best ever. You truly were even cooler than Batman and always will be.
• Why did you have to be so bloody damaged? I needed you. I loved you even when I hated you. I still do. Why couldn’t you have just loved me back? I know, somehow in your broken way you really did but you had one fucked up way of showing it.  I’ve tried so hard to despise you, really. I’ve tried to erase you and all the shit that you put us through but it cannot be done. Instead, I use you as a guide for how not to live my life.  Thanks a whole fuck of a lot, really.
• Baby, you need to stop beating yourself up over it. It’s not your fault and there was nothing you could have done to see this coming. You did your best and you tried, that’s a lot more than I can say about a lot of folks. It hurts me so bad to see you suffering this way and you’ve long since been through more than any one person should have to endure. As long as I breathe and beyond, you will always have support in me. I love you and we will get through this. BITFD baby, that’s how it’s done.

Day 25: 10 Ways to Win My Heart.

• Be honest.
• Be loyal.
• Be intelligent.
• Be funny.
• Think of the small things.
• Never act like you’re entitled to my favours.
• Accept me for who I am.
• Learning how to make a good pot of java always helps.
• Don’t patronise me.
• Don’t be a douche.

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