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No One is Infallible
February 28th, 2011, 4:35 AM | 
Author: I had a few moments of mortality and I ran for cover. I cut off everyone except the people that I couldn’t kick out of my house. I cowered in my own sweat and pain and I considered life, the universe and everything. It wasn’t pretty, I wasn’t pretty. I’m still not, but at least I’m somewhat grounded now. I needed that few days to hide out and reconsider everything that makes me tick and everything that just isn’t worth ticking about. I’m still feeling tender and bruised about it, trust me when I say that I am my own worst critic, I hate weakness, especially in myself.
I suppose I’m back, for how long I have no idea. If I make it through the surgery in eleven days then I suppose I can make it through anything. If not; ahhh well. Shit happens, far too often in some cases, thus perfectly and divinely explaining my horrendous predicament. I’ve changed. For the better or the worse; who’s to say? Not me, not you either. Glass houses and all that jazz..
I’m sorry. I fucked up. I do that sometimes and it’s supremely huge when I do. I can’t make any promises that I won’t do it again. I won’t even try.
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@Crispy Crunch, trying babe, it’s rough. Sorry for my untimely absence. Its been raw..
If I can’t be infallible, can I be unfallible? How about Phallus-able?
Tragic Reply:
February 28th, 2011 at 10:37 AM
@Grant, ha! Darlin’ I have SEEN your pics, you can be any kind of phallus (or able) you want and I’ll even make you soup!
stay beautiful, girl! thinking of you a lot…
peace
sb
xo
Tragic Reply:
February 28th, 2011 at 11:04 AM
@slimblue, you must have heard the noise in my brain *hugs*
Don’t expect you to be infallible, just you ; ) Sometimes being a friend means you have to step back and give the other room to thrash, scream or go silent; your job as friend is to get the bumper pads out and put down the plastic drop cloths. It may be painful to watch but no matter how much we care, some things are just not our choice to make (a very important lesson I learned this year.) Much love chica <333
Tragic Reply:
February 28th, 2011 at 11:15 AM
@Cherry, you’re ‘teh awesum’ for reals ♥
You didn’t fuck up, and have no need to be sorry my friend. We all feel weakness sometimes, it’s part of life. You are a beautiful person inside and out. And yes, your upcoming surgery is gonna be rough, but you are a survivor….and are going to come back strong as ever! Sending calm vibes, lots of strength and love……
Saskabush
Tragic Reply:
February 28th, 2011 at 12:19 PM
@Saskabush, thank you m’lady.. I guess I’m just in uber-panic mode right now.. Scared shitless is maybe a better descriptor..
Don’t worry darling, we love you and we’ll be waiting to see you on the other side of this xoxo
Tragic Reply:
February 28th, 2011 at 9:58 PM
@darkfairymomma, sometimes I’m utterly certain that if I didn’t have all of you out here; I’d be completely fucking lost ♥